A sign please

God, give me a sign...like a more obvious sign please.  I've been told I can be pretty oblivious so just something in-my-face would be preferred.  I'm just not sure what I'm supposed to do or where I'm supposed to go, but I'm trying to keep an open mind and an open heart.  You say just ask, so this is me knocking, seeking, asking.  I'm lost.

"'Everyone, when they are young, knows what their Personal Legend is. At that point in their lives, everything is clear and everything is possible. They are not afraid to dream, and to yearn for everything they would like to see happen to them in their lives. But, as time passes, a mysterious force begins to convince them that it will be impossible for them to realize their Personal Legend...

It's a force that appears to be negative, but actually shows you how to realize your Personal Legend. It prepares your spirit and your will, because there is one great truth on this planet: whoever you are, or whatever it is that you do, when you really want something, it's because that desire originated in the soul of the universe. It's your mission on earth...To realize one's destiny is a person's only real obligation...And, when you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it.'"

-The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho

Let Go and Let God

I'm going to "Let go, and let God."  I'm just trying to keep in mind that everything happens for a reason.  I'm not sure why we keep coming together and separating again, and I don't know what God has in store for us next, but I trust that He has a plan.  I trust that this relationship and break-up was a lesson to set us up for something greater, and we just have to wait and see what that is.  It might not be what we expect, but I have faith that it'll be exactly what we need. 

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I always thought it was you, or at least most of my life.  I don't know why, but I just felt for you and fell for you differently.  Last week, I prayed for peace, and He answered my prayers.  This week has been such a productive week with workouts, friends, meeting and hanging out with new friends, appreciating co-workers and employees, and even getting to talk to you was relieving.  I think most of all the working out has made me feel much better about myself and challenges my thoughts of what I am really capable of.  I'm stronger than I thought.  Everything is mental.

I was always attached to an idea that we would end up together, but now I'm just trusting in God that everything happens for a reason.  Whether or not we end up together, I know it will be for the best, and I'm getting more comfortable with that idea.

Sure. Right?

I was sure...I was so so sure, without a doubt.  And now, I doubt.  Now, I'm not sure.  Am I just stubborn or am will I be right sometime in the future or am I just flat out wrong?

Sinking

I keep getting a sinking feeling...it's the feeling when a billion bricks falls on your heart and it sinks and your eyes water.

It seems to be getting harder.

10 Things Happy Couples Do Differently

I keep reading this over and over, and I just wish I had read this article earlier or did more of these things earlier: http://www.marcandangel.com/2013/09/12/10-things-happy-couples-do-differently/

• committed to growing together
• resolve conflicts through love, not retaliation
• meet in the middle and work together
• actions consistently backup their claims of love
• focus on what they like about each other